Category Archives: Cancer

Growing Up in 2013

It would take great determination to ignore the nudge of implied importance each new year brings with it.  When it came around a year ago, I felt it through a muffle of physical exhaustion and the sense that I was … Continue reading

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Staying Afloat on the Waves of Change

Over the last few weeks, I’ve taken more than a dozen pictures of the same view.  In each photograph the sky is a different color, the clouds a different shape.  The butte in the foreground and the mountains behind trade … Continue reading

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Llamas and Estes Park, and the Scheme of all things Meaningful

  There’s a distinct possibility that at some point in time, all roads of meaning pass through Estes Park, Colorado. In 1873, Isabella Bird visited Estes Park when the only other human resident was mountain man James Nugent and the … Continue reading

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Barren Landscapes Are an Illusion

   “….the rush forward to the end, the leap that you take into the middle of danger when all you can do is look straight at it, because whatever is coming will come.”  — from The Postmistress, by Sarah Blake … Continue reading

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In Pursuit of the Happy Ending

  A good friend of mine who lives on the Wind River Indian Reservation, doesn’t like my blog.  He says it’s sad.  This is from an Arapaho man who grieves over the new Wyoming hunting season on wolves, who carries … Continue reading

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It Takes a Small Town

The local farrier showed up at 9:00 in the morning the other day, while I was still out feeding.  Once again, I had to try and explain to him that the llamas who greeted him were being curious, not trying … Continue reading

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Gardens and the Gift of Grace

In late June of last year, I was on call for daily radiation treatments.  Having suffered through the claustrophobia of the preparatory CAT scans and the bizarre fashioning around my body of what the technicians creepily called a “cradle,” I … Continue reading

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Writing Meets the Fear Factor

Never, not once since I was seven years old and sat down at the kitchen table to write my autobiography, have I ever been afraid to begin writing a book.  Not even after my brother told me the first few … Continue reading

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On Reading, the Road and Flight Behavior

Blessed are the ones who read.  Beyond essentials of shelter and food, sufficient vigor to embrace the light of day, enough companionship to be reflected in someone else’s need, can anything surpass the sustaining power of reading? Of all the … Continue reading

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Cats in My Bed

When cancer fully sunk its claws into me, I took to my bed. That’s such a feminine phrase, isn’t it? She took to her bed. It implies all kinds of choice and self indulgence flooding the parched desperation of tragedy. … Continue reading

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